Friday, December 9, 2016

I'm a big friggin' mess today.


So, you're rolling along thinking life is fine and then BAM out of the blue you're just a big crybaby.

Shit.  Ok, let me back up.  Just before Thanksgiving I was informed that our equity partners are backing out, and our company will be shutting down.  For good. Final. Over. Done.  I. Will. Have. No. Job. 

I've been through every possible emotion over it, and thought I was close to the point of acceptance.  I mean I have no choice but to accept it.  But emotionally, mentally I'm not there yet.  I thought I was, but I'm not.  I'm a big crying, sobbing mess today.  I hate feeling weak like this.  I hate not having an answer.  I hate having to deal with this bullshit.  I don't want to have to go on interviews.  I don't want to have to start all over.

 I am pissed.  I am stunned.  I am lost.


The only place I can truly let go of it is at the gym, when I need to focus on what I'm doing so I don't accidentally kill myself with a barbell or something.  Or you know, someone else.  Ha! 

Today I channeled all this emotion into getting a PR.  Although at the time I didn't know it was a PR, it just felt like a really awesome solid lift.  It feels good and that's what my focus will be on today.  This one success for the day, a 130# Hang Power Clean.  Go me!!

6min AMRAP
-6 Hang Power Clean 155/105 RX+ 185/125 MRX 115/65
-30 Double-unders
-12cal Row
Immediately into
6min Build to a 1 RM Hang Power Clean

WOD MRx = 2 rds + 23 DU
Max HPC: 130# – 5# PR!!

This was our warmup:

2min HPC w/65: 40
2min DU’s: 50 + 30 singles
2min Row for Cal: 25
1min HPC w/65: 25
1min DU’s: 32
1min Row for Cal: 15

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

Go Vote!

I mean, really you should but only if you vote the way I want you to.  KIDDING~!  Just go vote.

Let's see, I skipped a while blogging.  Since my last update I've goofed up my left ankle.

I was running, out in the middle of nowhere (in a state park) on a beautiful, foggy morning and just as I was about to make a turn, I caught my foot on the edge of a groove in the road and turned it all the way out, which threw me into a skid in the road and sent me flying.  I did everything I could not to go down on my face, all the while millions of thoughts ran through my head:  "How will I call for help, since my phone is way over there? I hope it's not broken.  Will there be blood?  I didn't hear a snap.  I don't want to ride that awful bike at the gym."  And on and on...

So, there I was in the fog, trying to get my phone out of the road, and get myself off the road, when a stray dog came up (I think he's going to bite me) and he started licking me.  Which I hate, by the way.  Anyway, I assessed the damage and sat there writhing in pain for a while, afraid to get up.  Wasn't sure if it was just a bad sprain or what.  Finally a couple guys came along and helped me up.  I walked on it and the pain subsided somewhat, so in my complete state of genius, I ran back to camp on it.  I got in 2.15 miles.  Ha ha!

Long story, but I hiked 6 miles the next day.  I think the hiking boot actually helped it. It was swollen all weekend, but I'm wearing a compression sleeve and that has helped tremendously with swelling.  I ran at the gym Monday, but took it easy today, no rope climbs, no double unders, etc. It'll heal.  I figure typical rehab time is about 6 weeks.  So...tick tock!

Oh...and I'm STILL hitting weight loss goals.  It's slow going these last few pounds, but so satisfying to know that my plan is working.  Consistency and dedication are KEY!

Friday, October 28, 2016


What a tough week at CFJ! 

I'm still sore from Monday.  Or something...somewhere in between Monday and now.  Everything is sore.  But its a "good" sore I suppose.

I've pushed myself this week for the most part.  I mean, yesterday I was super tired so maybe I didn't go all out, but I felt like I got a good workout.

I'm ready for the weekend though.  Tomorrow I'm doing a photo shoot - first time ever doing someone's Senior pictures.   Not sure I'm a portrait photographer but I'll give it a try.

And then I'll get all deviled up and go to Royce & Cindy's Halloween bash.  Should be fun! 

TGIF!!  Have a good weekend!

Tuesday, October 25, 2016


I'm sore all over.
I'm exhausted.
It's only Tuesday!

Had a great weekend camping, hiking, stargazing and enjoying some fine wine. Well, $15 a bottle is fine, right?  Ha ha!  I love getting outdoors and being more active.  It means I can have a few treats on the weekend, like cheese, which I miss on a regular basis, and maybe some chips and dip.  Yes!  Anyway, still on track to hit my 20 lb goal by the end of the year.  I'm SOOOOO close!!

Today's WOD was one of those that looked impossible to me from the get-go.  Breck, ever optimistic and encouraging, told me I could do it.  He believes in me more than I believe in me.  Someone has to...right?

With a Continously Running Clock for Best Times Loads
= 95/65lbs RX+ 115/80lbs MRX 75/55lbs
-0:00-4:00min -Run 200m – 7 SDHP – Run 200m – 7 Hang Power Snatch
-4:00-10:00min – 11 SDHP – Run 400m – 11 Hang Power Snatch
-10:00-14:00min -Run 200m – 7 Power Snatch – Run 200m – 7 Hang Power Snatch
-14:00-20:00min -11 Power Snatch – Run 600m – 11 Hang Power Snatch
-20:00-24:00min – Run 200m – 7 SDHP – Run 200m – 7 Hang Power Snatch
-24:00min – UTC – 11 SDHP – Run 800m – 11 Hang Power Snatch

My times using MRx weight of 55#:


I did all the lifts unbroken.  Which really isn't much of a feat, at 55#.  But I had to do them unbroken or I wouldn't have hit the time caps each round.  My running felt awful today.  Breathing wouldn't even out until the 800m run, and then it was half way over before I got a rhythm back to my breathing.

 As always, I"m glad I pushed myself to just show up at the gym.  Some days that's all it takes.

Thursday, October 20, 2016

Well, just look at me...

Back over here blogging two days in a damn row!!

SO, this morning I was dreaming, peacefully and slowly started to wake up and I looked over at the clock and it said 5:02! CRAP on a cracker!  I overslept.  I did NOT want to miss Annie, because I've been on a roll with the double-unders lately and I just knew I could PR it!  So I hopped out of bed, threw on (matching!) clothes, brushed my teeth, put up a pony tail while peeing and tying my shoes (I'm a trained professional, do not try this at home!) and ran out the door as fast as I could.

I made it to the gym just in time to grab my jump rope and get an abmat and get in position.  Zero warm-up, though I was already sweating from rushing around. 

So...3-2-1 GO!

I PR'd Annie by what I thought was 3 minutes but it was actually only 2.  I'll take it. Why did I think it was three you ask?  Well, I haven't updated the side panel over there---> to show my most recent PR for Annie, so I was thinking 11:38ish.  Anyway, I went back through the CFJ pages and found my real PR and it was 10:36. 

Today's time was 8:36 so *boom*  2 whole minutes.

We did other stuff...bench, and some planks and stuff, but that's too boring to write about in comparison to Annie.  :)

And, I have a "cigar burn" on my bootie to show for all of this.  Go figure. 

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

PR day!

Yeah, I haven't been blogging at all. Like in months.  Oh well, today I hit a PR so I figured I'd come over and make note of it.  You know, in case I forget or something.

PR = 16 unbroken pull ups
PR = "bi-polar nicole" = 64 reps

So there it is.  :)

Let's see...what else?  I'm almost to my 20 lb weight loss goal...2.5 lbs to go.  Which explains why my body weight exercises are improving.

Life is great! 

Thursday, August 11, 2016

Hello August!'s August.  11th.  One month since I've blogged.

Since that time, I've been sailing in the Virgin Islands and I've been back home for weeks now.
I've also maintained my weight loss and my commitment to lose more.

Anyway, today I made myself go to the gym, even though Kelly was the posted WOD.  I despise that workout.  It's just so mentally defeating.  I just scaled it to suit myself and got a good workout anyway!  Here's what I did:


5 rounds
400m run
15 box step ups 20″
15 wall ball shots 10#

Time= 26:07

I did 30 sit ups afterward and that was all I had to offer today.  :)

Monday, July 11, 2016

What? We're half way through Summer?

I haven't blogged in a while.  Obviously.

Kind of forgot about until someone mentioned it this weekend, at our CFJ pool party.

I've been working hard at the gym, usually doing the Masters Rx weight on stuff.  I mean, I"m not officially 55 (two more years), but the weights feel about right to me.

Also, I'm down to 16 lb weight loss since April 11 or whenever I started this.  Managed to not gain a ton on my June vacation, despite eating some pretty tasty stuff.  Heading out to the Virgin Islands for a couple weeks this Wednesday, and hopefully when I return I won't have gained it all back.

I'm 4 lbs from a 20 lb goal.  Hopefully I can hit that goal by the end of August, and another 5 by end of September.  Then I'll be happy with it and settle in at that weight.  I already feel SO much better having that 16 lbs gone. 

Today's WOD:

For Time:
100m Run/sprint
21 Thrusters 95/65 MRX 75/55
3 Rope Climbs15′ RX+ 3 Legless MRX 3 10′
15 Thrusters
2 Rope Climbs15′ RX+ 2 Legless MRX 2 10′
9 Thrusters
1 Rope Climb 15′ RX+ 1 Legless MRX 1 10′
100m Run/sprint

My time:  10:18, MRx

I still do not like thrusters.   Probably not going to happen at this point, eight years+ of CF.  But I'll do them.  It's all exercise, so whatever.  I love the rope climbs.  Just wish I wasn't scared of the higher one. 

Strength was Back Squats

I should get back to lifting heavier on these.  Maybe this fall, I'll focus more on that. 

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Ready for some sunshine!

So, let's see.  I've been sick for days.  I skipped the gym Monday & Tuesday.  Decided to go try it today and did okay, just modified everything.  I've had this upper respiratory crap that seems to be making the rounds.  I'm drowning in my own snot.  I know...gross!

Anyway, with the magical combination of Mucinex and Nyquil, I'm gaining on getting over this stuff.

Also, I'm still eating healthy, counting my macros and losing weight.  I'm down a grand total of 14 lbs since April 10.  That's averaging a little over 2 lbs a week.  I need to lose 6 more.  Then I'd love to lose 5 more as a bonus, but we shall see.  I don't see myself changing the way I'm eating, other than when I hit my goal, adjusting for "maintenance".  I need to do some reading on that to determine what my numbers should be (calories, fat, carbs, protein).  I've got time to work on it.

5 MUs (Bar or Ring) or 5 Burpee Pull-ups
50 Double Unders
50 Ab-Mat sit-ups anchored
4 MUs (Bar or Ring) or 4 Burpee Pull-ups
40 Double Unders
40 Ab-Mat sit-ups anchored
3 MUs (Bar or Ring) or 3 Burpee Pull-ups
30 Double Unders
30 Ab-Mat sit-ups anchored
2 MUs (Bar or Ring) or 2 Burpee Pull-ups
20 Double Unders
20 Ab-Mat sit-ups anchored
1 MU (Bar or Ring) or 1 Burpee Pull-up
10 Double Unders
10 Ab-Mat sit-ups anchored

My time:  11:30, modified

So this is basically Annie with some burpee pull ups.  I just did strict chin ups and strict pull ups.  I think I actually kipped one or two.  And I stuck with single unders.  I didn't want to get to breathing so hard that I started hacking and coughing all over the place.  Afterward I rested up and then ran 2 x 400m.  Nothing fast or hard, just trying to fill the hour.

Ready to go try again tomorrow.

Friday, May 20, 2016

TGIF and all that jazz.

So, I ran in the rain today.

Breck said it's an old wives tale that you'll get sick from running in the rain.

Guess what?

I'm sick.  Thanks Breck.

Heading out to see if I can get a strep test in a few minutes.  The sore throat came on really fast and I feel like crap. So, better get it checked out. 

In other, more CrossFit related news, I ran a mile under 10 minutes.  My time was 9:52.  This is 50 seconds behind my all-time PR from 2008.  So, not too shabby, considering how much older I am.

10min AMRAP:
5 Burpee Box Jumps/Step ups 24/20″ RX+ 30/24
1 Rope Climb 15′ RX+ Legless 55+ 10′
200m Sprint (1 rep/pt each 100m)
10 Ring Dips RX+ Strict 55+ Bar Dips

My Score:  3 rds + 3 burpee box jumps

I did the 10' rope and bar dips, so "masters".   Good way to end the week, and now I hope this is just a cold and not strep...I have things to do!!!